I’m bothered a lot of the time. I read the parable of the sower and wonder if maybe I fell on the path or on the rock or among the thorns. I read Jesus saying that the road to life is narrow and few will find it and wonder if I’m strolling down the wide road. I read Him saying that many people will call out to Him as Lord when they have to stand face to face, but He won’t know them. I’m really hesitant to brush these passages off as if they were not intended for me. 2 Timothy says that all scripture is God breathed and profitable for teaching, all of it. It wouldn’t make sense for God to put passages like this in scripture for people who weren’t going to read it. I think I often dismiss pieces of the bible like these because I think they are for non-Christian people. They obviously speak about people who don’t have a genuine deep relationship with Jesus, but they are meant for people who are reading the bible, that’s why they’re in the bible. God obviously knew that there would be church going bible reading “Christians” who would not have a real, open, genuine relationship with him. If the way is narrow, 3/4 of the seeds scattered won’t stand, and church going isn’t the same as knowing the Lord, then how am I suppose to react to that? Church going and bible reading can be faked, so those can’t be the standard for the narrow way. Emotions, feelings and excitement for God ebbs and flows, so that can’t be the standard for the seeds that stand.
Romans 4:5 says, “And to the one who does not work but believes in him who justifies the ungodly, his faith is counted as righteousness” and if you read James 2:24 it says, “You see that a person is justified by works and not by faith alone”. I typically try to resolve any questions I bring up and come to somewhat of a conclusion, but I’m going to leave it with you this time. Paul and James seems to be saying different things and faith and works. How do we live life as people who are not dying seeds or fools wandering down the wide path? How do we make sense of Paul’s “not works” and James’ “by works”?
I want you to struggle. I want you to think hard. I want you to grow as someone who understands more and more about your relation to God. I don’t claim to understand everything, or even much of anything. However, I am willing to struggle to prepare a defense for the hope that is in me.